Blogger Guilt

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By minsmash on March 6, 2014 • ( 17 Comments )

Blogger Guilt.  Yep I have a little of that at the moment, but having thought about it, I have determined that it is just self-inflicted guilt due to the high expectations I put on myself.  I’m actually pretty sure that no-one out there is scoffing and saying things like “oh my that Min hasn’t blogged in XX amount of days.  That is shocking!  Shocking I say!”  Probably no-one has really noticed!   When I think about it, I reckon I have a right to determine my own priorities without any guilt.

Some people can juggle lots of balls successfully and some even LOVE to juggle lots of balls and need to to feel fulfilled.   Me … I tried and was successful sort of – but eventually it got a bit much and those balls started to drop (eg I got waaaay behind in my photography assignments)!

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I haven’t been blogging regularly lately.  I haven’t given up on blogging … it’s just some other things need to take priority right now.

Like my photography studies.  Each assignment is like 3 or 4 assignments in one.  I need time to read through the modules.  I need to get out and about to take the photographs.  I need to spend time editing the photographs.  I need time to discuss things with fellow students in our Facebook Group.  I need to write up my assignments.  I’m supposed to have finished the course by the end of April.  I still have six (6) assignments yet to be completed.  Hence why this has become a high priority!

Like living life.  Sometimes blogging can keep you tied at your computer a little too much.  So much that you end up not actually living life to actually blog about!   The words stopped coming to me.  I wasn’t writing blog posts in my head.  Something didn’t feel right.  I need to step back and live life so that the words start flowing again.

Domestic stuff.  There’s no avoiding it.  There is washing, cleaning, ironing, cooking, gardening, shopping etc that has to get done.  In amongst everything else, I’m trying to find the right balance so that all these things get done.  I’m a tidy house/tidy mind kinda person.

Family.  My kids may be older now but I still like to spend time with them and know what is happening in their worlds.  I am also still kept busy with them.  Only a couple of days ago, I had to shelve my plans for the afternoon when my daughter came home from Uni sick.  Luckily I managed to get a doctor’s appointment for her that afternoon and off I went to take her to that, then to the chemist.  She also needed a physio appointment which was booked for the following morning and there went my afternoon.

Dogs.  I love my dogs.  They need my attention – playing, bathing, grooming, walking.

I still have plans for a new blog but as my highest priority at the moment is to catch up with my photography assignments, that will have to wait for a while.  Meanwhile, this blog will still be updated with blog posts – just not as regularly as before.  At least until I’m back on track with my studies!

This year is a big year for me.  On 31 May I will be leaving my 40’s forever *sigh*.  Yes … I will be turning 50.  It is hard to believe but I’ve had plenty of time to adjust to the idea.  I’ve decided to be grateful that I am still alive to turn 50.  Not everyone is!  I also think that my 50’s will be much happier than my 40’s.  My children have finished school – no more school fees or juggling work/school stuff.   I don’t feel the pressure so much to be slim and glamorous.  Of course this doesn’t mean I want to be fat and I would still like to feel attractive!  I feel more at ease to just be myself and stuff what anyone else thinks.  I like that!

Anyway, for my 50^th I don’t want a party.  I decided that I wanted to get away somewhere quiet, surrounded in nature where I don’t have to cook, where I could go for lovely walks, where there is plenty of gorgeous photography fodder, where I could get a spa treatment, where I could read books and hear only the sounds of nature as I do … and sooooo I have booked 3 nights away for hubby and myself at Montville here.  Doesn’t it look divine!!

Hubby has sent me an email from work saying that he is taking two weeks holiday at the end of March and into April and do I want to go away somewhere.  Hmmm….where should we go people?  Keep in mind that we are not millionaires’ haha!!

So to you who read my blog, my posts are not as frequent at the moment but I’ve not deserted my blog.  I’m just busy living life, doing my assignments, doing domestic stuff, being with my family, and looking after my dogs so that when the words come back to me, they will be reflections of real life and living.

Ciao for now,

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