365 Grateful Project

365 Grateful – Day 188

I’ve been blogging now for 7 months.  During this time I have not yet met another blogger, nor have I attended any blogger meet up, blogger conference or workshop.

There have been occasions where I was keen to go to a blogger event and have had a valid reason for not going (i.e. being sick, budget, distance, other commitments) but there has also been a lot of fear holding me back from going to blogger events.

I have an anxiety disorder.  I haven’t always been an anxious person but this has been one of my crosses to bear since May 2012 when a distressing incident occurred that sent my nervous system into overdrive.

On Sunday 28 April 2013, Blog Power Events are holding a Blog Power Workshop.  A variety of speakers will deliver an intensive workshop designed to leave you confident with the tools to successfully improve your blog, engage your readers, master your stats, work with brands, and maybe even expand your blog into your own business.

I would dearly love to go.  I would like to meet other bloggers in real life and get to know them and I would so appreciate the opportunity to learn from them and have some of my questions answered.

When I first saw this Workshop announced on Facebook, I was nervously excited because it was in Brisbane!  Then I saw it was being held at North Lakes.  North Lakes?  That must be on the North side of Brisbane.  I don’t know the North side of Brisbane at all.  My anxiety levels elevated – so I instantly dismissed it.  You see I have an anxiety fuelled fear of driving to unfamiliar places.

Did you notice that in the paragraph before this I said ‘nervously excited’?  I said that because of my other fear.  A fear of walking alone into a room full of people I don’t know.  What will they think of me?  Will I be what they expect?  Will I disappoint?  Will I make a fool of myself?  What would I wear?  I know it sounds silly, even to me, because I used to be such a social butterfly.  Who is this person I have become?

Guess what?  Blog Power Events is offering an opportunity for one blogger to win a ticket to this Workshop.  Isn’t that awesomely generous?!   Again, my fears have prevented me trying…until now.  I have decided to give it a go – for my own good.  What you need to do is:   tell them why going to this workshop is important to you. Tell them via blog post, or even via vlog, just make sure you get creative and put your post on face book, twitter, instagram, Vine, and whatever else you have up your sleeve!

So I’m starting with this blog post which I am incorporating into today’s Grateful – Day 188, because this opportunity is most certainly something to be grateful and thankful for.  This post may not be fabulously creative but it is honest and from the heart.  I explain why it is important to me to go to this Workshop below:

I want to go to the Blog Power Events Workshop because I am new to blogging and have so, so, so much to learn.  I have many questions!  I have never met another blogger and have never before been to a blogger meet up, conference or workshop.   I would like to feel part of a community and feel more like a real blogger.  I would love to meet other bloggers and get to know them in real life and of course to learn from them. There are a few factors that prevent me from buying a ticket. Firstly, I am planning on enrolling in an on-line professional photography course which is going to cost lots of $’s … so budget is a concern, but even more than that is the fact that I have an anxiety disorder and there are two things I am afraid of. I’m afraid of driving to unfamiliar places. The north side of Brisbane I do not know at all. I’m also afraid of walking alone into a roomful of people I don’t know. Anxiety prevents me from doing so many things. It is continually shrinking my comfort zone.  It is important to me to go to this Workshop because I want to and I need to.  If I won a ticket – I would then have no choice but to face my anxieties head on and maybe by doing that it would encourage me to do so more often and my comfort bubble would expand so that I could live life more fully and joyfully.

I am grateful to Blog Power Events for offering opportunities for bloggers to meet and to learn more and for the very generous opportunity they have offered for one blogger to win a ticket to the upcoming Blog Power Workshop later this month.

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Linking up today with Leigh of Six by the Bay‘s – Thankful Thursday

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and Blogs and PR‘s – Talk to Us Thursday

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  1. I do hope you can get yourself to the Blog Power Workshop. I know how you feel, maybe not in quite such a major way but on a smaller scale. When I do make myself do it I’m always grateful. And… I used to write for a content site and while on holiday in Singapore recently I met too wonderful fellow writers from that site. I was terrified, but the experience was certainly worth it!

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    • Thank you Val. I’ll be keeping my fingers and toes crossed (with a side serve of anxiety!). That must have been wonderful to meet the two fellow writers in Singapore! I’ve been to Singapore and loved it!

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  2. I understand anxiety. I have panic attacks and I also completely freak out if I have to drive somewhere I don’t know. But I do know, when you finally get to meet other bloggers on 28 April, it’s going to be great. These are going to be people that actually ‘get’ what you do. I was so nervous before I went to my first blogger meet up – now, I can’t wait for the next one. I’ll hold your hand 🙂

    Great entry too, good luck!

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    • Hi Rachel, wow thank you! I have panic attacks too. Though I wouldn’t wish them on anyone, it is reassuring to hear that someone else gets them too and understands! If I end up getting to the workshop, I very well might take you up on the holding my hand offer! lol Thanks again, Min xo

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  3. I’ll let you into a secret – 99.9% of the bloggers who go to blogging events for the first time FEEL EXACTLY LIKE YOU. Truly you are not alone.
    Wishing you every success in winning a ticket – and good luck at the event – you’ll be fine !
    Have the best day !
    Me

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    • Thank you so much for your comment and the good luck! I guess you are right and many bloggers are very nervous attending blogging events – especially for the first time. The problem with me though is that the fear of driving somewhere unfamiliar, mixed with stressing over what to wear, mixed with hoping people like me and I don’t make a dill of myself could result in a panic attack before I even get there. However, I am getting better at breathing techniques to help me stop ‘catastrophising’ things so that they don’t elevate to that level (hopefully)! Min xo

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  4. Oh Min! I just want to give you a big hug! The first meet up I went to I was so nerve wracked I actually felt like I could vomit. But before I had even had a chance to sit down I was instantly put at ease by other bloggers, who where just the nicest bunch of people. I’m sure your first blogger event will be just the same and soon you will be addicted just like me.
    xx

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    • Oh thank you Lisa! If I get to meet you we can have that big hug. I love hugs and if I do end up getting to the workshop – I will be in desperate need of a hug when I get there! lol It is so interesting to hear that so many bloggers have been incredibly nervous before attending their first ever blogging event. It makes me feel less strange! I sure do look forward to meeting some bloggers. They sound like a wonderful bunch of people. Min xo

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  5. Oh Min I can relate to all your words here.The panic attacks,the anxiety… all these things that put such restrictions on our lives.
    You are so brave to enter this competition and I admire you so much for that bravery…I wouldn’t be able to do it.
    I will wish so hard for you to win.Much love and understanding.xx

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    • Thanks Deby, sorry to hear you can relate to all the anxiety stuff. It is all relatively new to me but geez it sucks! I’m not brave, I just am so sick of not doing so many things I want to because of the fear of anxiety. xo

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  6. Well I hope you win coz I’d really love to see you there – I could even pick you up and drive you if you like! And if you don’t get to this meetup, I haven’t forgotten plans for our local one – last week of May!

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    • I’d love to finally meet you Janet! If I am lucky enough to win a ticket then I may just take you up on the offer to pick me up and drive me there. That would help enormously with my two biggest fears (driving to an unfamiliar place & walking in alone). I’m looking forward to the local meet up! Have you settled on a day/date in the last week of May? My birthday is on 31 May – the last of many May family birthdays!

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  7. I have been blogging for almost 4 years and only just went to my first meet up and a conference this year. Best thing I could have done, loved them both. Bloggers are incredibly lovely and welcoming people and I know if you go you’ll have a fabulous time!

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    • Wow Kylie – 4 years before you went to your first meet up! So great to hear you enjoyed them both. I only ever hear great things about blogger events, so I’m sure that if I get to this one I will love it and wonder what all the fuss was about!

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  8. The thought of a blogging event so close to me, I’m on the northern end of the Gold Coast, excites me. Not only would it mean I could have an ENTIRE day without answering the never ending nagging,crying and fighting of my three under 5 years old that is slowly driving me batty, but I could take the first step in meet other bloggers nearby! I might even see how much it costs and just buy a ticket – you can’t put a price on a sanity right?! Em via Blogs and PR TUST 🙂

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  9. Hey,
    I’m so excited for you. You can do this. Anxiety is horrible. Depression is horrible. One cannot explain how it feels and no one can understand how it feels if they haven’t experienced it. I have two blogs. One is about depression and anxiety. You would be amazed how many peopel share your fears plus some of their own. I was there once too and wouldn’t wish wish it on anyone. I’ve not connected with any other blogger either. I didn’t even know there were these kind of events. I’m going to google to see if there are any in my part of the world. I’ll be scared, too, but I’m going to go. Can’t wait to hear about your experience. Good Luck from another new blogger.
    Rebecca

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    • Thanks Rebecca – yep A & D are horrible and you are right in saying no-one can truly understand unless they have been there. I hope you find some opportunities to meet up with other bloggers in your part of the world! Thanks for the good luck – I’ll probably need it! Min xo

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  10. I’d been blogging for 3years before I went to my first meet up and it was something in Brisbane. I felt highly embarrassed and like a beginner compared to so many others there despite blogging for so long. You’re already doing a lot of networking and putting yourself out there through linkys (and I wasn’t brave enough to do that then) etc so it will be fine! Everyone was super-friendly.

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    • I’m sure I’ll be fine whenever I get to my first one (touch wood)!! I’ve cut back on the linkies…it was consuming too much of my time. I have so much I need to learn!!

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  11. Hi Min, I’m just the same as you – been blogging about 7/8 months now and I’ve also never been to an event, meet & greet or met a fellow blogger either. Although I don’t suffer from anxiety I can totally understand your fears. I think you should go and I bet you have the best time ever. Fingers crossed you win that ticket and if I were going, I’d definitely come over and say hi.
    Visiting a little late from TUSK xx

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    • Hi Robyn, I hope you get to a bloggy event soon too! Fingers crossed that I win a ticket..but if not then hopefully I will get to one soon! I would definately say hi to you too if we were at the same event. Hope you’ve had a great weekend! Min xo

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  12. Thanks everyone for all your support. Much appreciated! I didn’t win the ticket. My fault – I didn’t properly read the brief. I think I was meant to funny and more creative. Nevermind…I’ll get to a bloggy thing one day soon for sure. Unfortunately can’t afford the ticket to this one due to the *gulp* large sum of money I’m about to pay for the photography course. There is a local bloggy get together coming up in late May that should be affordable 🙂 xo

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  13. Oh Min, I really hope you win this and face your fears. It would be so good for you. My fingers are crossed for you. You are a gutsy woman and so honest. I think you are very deserving of this comp! xxx

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    • Thank you Leigh. I didn’t win the ticket unfortunately. See my comment above yours. Tad embarassed…poured my heart out when it was funny they wanted. Ooops.. xo

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  14. I have just found this post, and am crying my eyes out. My husband told me, that when I found the courage to share my own anxiety issues (as I did only this morning on my brand new blog) I would surely find other women in a similar position to myself. Thank you for being brave enough to share. You have made my day. In my very brief look at your blog I see we have much in common, I wish you much luck on your journey. I’ll be following along 🙂 xx

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    • Hi Nicole, I’m so glad you’ve discovered there are many of us with anxiety issues (sorry to make you cry though! lol). Through blogging I have discovered many others that share the same kind of issues as me. It is really hard to open up and reveal this stuff but kind of liberating to do so in a way. I also think it is important to open up and talk about these things. We need to stop these kind of issues being hidden and something to feel ashamed of. Too many people suffer alone when in fact there are SO many others out there with the same kind of issues. Talking to each other and talking about it is the best therapy out there. Good luck on your journey and with your blog. I will have to come have a visit 🙂 Min xo

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